Holli grew up in a very small town in Arizona that was founded by Mormons. There were 2500 people in the town and 98% were Mormon. She wasn’t allowed to speak with any one that wasn’t in the church or befriend them. Talk about being repressed.
Holli had a hard time dating the guys she grew up with because she knew them to well. Without a doubt she knew she didn’t like “that” type. Plus she knew deep down she didn’t want to be part of the Mormon Church. As she got older she realized the Mormon Church was not something she believed.
As soon as she turned 18 and graduated high school she left that town. Holli moved to Tucson, Arizona, and met a young man that was the total opposite of her. This turned her on because she was rebelling against her parents and being over 18 she was old enough to make her own choices.
He was not the right guy for her and a year after dating him she packed up her belongings and drove up to Utah to be near her sister. Holli figured starting over was a good idea.
She started working for a company that flew her out to California for training. During this time she met her first husband.
They were married for 8 ½ years. During the marriage Holli expressed her desire of being with woman and even though her husband loved watching pornography with two woman in it, he freaked out at the thought of his then wife being with another woman. This confused Holli…even frustrating her at times because again she was being repressed.
Holli and her husband had bad communication and trust issues. This was not due to Holli. It was due to the fact her husband had control issues, got caught in many lies and he suffered from multiple insecurities.
Holli craved a normal happy relationship where she could share her fantasies and not get yelled at, lied to or deceived. She desired a relationship where; communication came naturally instead of forced, sex was meaningful and enjoyed versus being a chore and she could be herself without fear of being judged.
After making the decision that life was to precious to be in an unhappy relationship, she left her husband.
She dated around and found what made her happy and what made her unhappy. She’d never really been “single”. She had a blast and for the first time in her life had booty calls. Lots of booty calls. After awhile she met the most amazing man. The man that let her be herself without fear of repercussions or judgment.
She and Michael started dating and he introduced her to the Lifestyle at her request. Her first time was the most incredible experience. She had told him exactly what turned her on and he was all for it. She wanted to be with a woman so badly she could “taste it” each time an attractive woman passed her.
They went to the first party and as nervous and excited as she was she went without hesitation. The minute they got there she began to look around. Holli had fun scoping out the entire mansion because you never know what will happen at these parties and she wanted to take it all in.
After they had their first cocktail and watched people on the dance floor they began talking to other couples. Holli didn’t realize she was such a voyeur. She was getting turned on and excited.
This is the first Lifestyle party Holli had ever been to and many places she looked people were having sex. Holli had never seen people having sex live in front of her before. She knew right then she was in a place dreams can come true.
She didn’t know if she could look or how long she could look. What is or isn’t appropriate. She had so many questions and Michael was willing to answer them all. Holli knew the atmosphere screamed sexy. It loosened her up and she began to realize that this is the life she wanted from now on.
A beautiful woman approaches Holli and Michael and asks Holli if she would like to kiss her. Holli is excited yet scared. Am I cheating on Michael? Even though I’ve fantasized about it is this something I should be doing? She looked to Michael and he reassures her he wants her to do what makes her happy. He tells Holli he is happy if she is happy. So without any further hesitation Holli kisses the girl. It took a couple more times of being with a woman for Holli to understand she wasn’t cheating on Michael. She learned living sexy is about communicating openly and honestly.
Holli and Michael are happily married. Together they co-parent and raise their son (from her first marriage) and daughter (from Michael’s first marriage).
Do you really know what it means to be a Swinger living in the Lifestyle?
Do you like it real?
Do you like to be a “fly on the wall”?